Well, as much as i hate to say it, Miriam was right about something.
Being second pick sucks.

Before those in the know shout "That's unfair to say!" i'd like to say yes,
it's INCREDIBLY unfair.
That's because it's also true.

i'm not saying she'd rather be on a ridealong; i know where she'd like to be.
Unlike a few people still may, i have no illusions that this girl loves me utterly.
Truth be told, some of you just may have noticed that i'm a bit taken with her too.
It's just still sort of been deflating my ego
(which i will be the first to say could do with some deflating. Rather a lot, more like.)
that even if she'd rather spend time than go with her Po group,
she still would rather not spend time than make it a problem for them.
i know i told her not to worry about it, and i meant that; i really don't want anything
upsetting her; and i know i'm just being a selfish git about the whole thing.
It just feels better to have it out, especially since i know that she rarely, if ever, gets a
chance to see this page; hopefully she won't see this until the point is moot anyway.
And hopefully, this won't turn into a Romeo and Juliette style 'message gone astray'
like the last one; which i had quite a time talking her down from.
Well, what's done is done, and what's said is said.

Until i edit it all out, i suppose.

Courtesy.
- posted by Third @ 12:30 AM