Okay, i'm going to come right out and say it, now that i'm sure.

Sierra broke up with me. It was exactly two weeks ago tomorrow (monday), but i didn't understand what she was saying to me at the time. She doesn't love me any more. She hasn't called me in two weeks, and the brief messages i have got from her haven't given me any reason to doubt that she doesn't feel anything for me at all any more. She just wants to be done with me. Since the only thing keeping me here was the possibility of nine days with her in August, i'm going to be shipping out as soon as possible. Whenever there's a CTI job leaving next, i'll be on it. i'm really sorry to all of you who will miss me, and i'm very afraid that i might end up the same way; that once i'm gone, none of you will mean what you used to. If that does happen, i'm sorry now, since i won't be sorry then. It kills me inside to think that there might be someone here who i'm going to be making feel like i do now, but i can't stay here, when i have less to stay for than to leave for. i have some incredible friends here, but it also hurts that everywhere i look, something reminds me of the greatest love i ever had, and lost. It doesn't feel like i'm running from anything, though. i'm running toward something.

Courtesy.
- posted by Third @ 2:25 PM (3) comments